Tuesday, July 30, 2013


Thank you from the bottom of my heart. Really means a lot. So as promised here is a small excerpt from my novel, The Glass Butterfly.

I tried to wonder what would happen if I let myself believe. If I saw past their masks and looked into their cold, hard eyes. I knew without having anyone telling me that things would change and there would be no going back. This town had always appeared so normal. There was main street with all it's little shops, like the big antique shop with it's cluttered window displays and the French styled cafe with the metal tables that never seemed to rust no matter how many times they stood in the rain. None of it was strange.

Not until I opened my eyes.

Standing here at the very end of the road to nowhere I can understand why this seemingly normal town and it's residents would call main street by such a name as the road to nowhere, but they are wrong.  Footsteps approach from behind me. They are slow, cautious and after what had just happened, I didn't blame him for being so cautious around me.

"The road to nowhere leads somewhere."

Sunday, July 21, 2013


So happy!!! It's nice not having second thoughts about this novel. I'm a writing machine! I don't have much time to write these days between getting ready for a con, working hard on losing weight and trying not to go insane because of the high amount of stress due to not being able to find a job. I'm halfway done! Well, in less like my other novels, I go way past my "word goal". I say word goal lightly because I let the novel end itself. When it feels like it is all tying together in a smooth way, I know it's time to write that closing scene. With my first novel when I recently re-wrote it (A few years ago.) I wound up going from 50,000 to 100,000 words. I doubled it. I'm hoping that happens afterwards when I edit.

I've already decided that once I finish, which I am hoping will be before fall, I will take as long as I need to edit and allow someone (my fiance normally.) read over it to catch those little buggers I've overlooked. I've made the mistake in the past, thinking a quick edit would suffice after the novel is finished. This time I want to make sure I add everything I need before it is seen by any agent.

Once it has been read and edited I plan on writing up a first draft for a synopsis and a query letter. Once those have been re-written (I never use my first draft.) I plan on letting as many people as I can read over it, tell me what they like, what interests them and if they understand the plot. Once I'm pleased with what I hear I plan on finally sending them out to the first batch of agents. I'm doing things a bit differently and will only send out my query to about ten at a time so I remember who I sent it to and when I receive a reply.

I hope I can finish this novel before November so I can join the great fun that is known as National Novel Writing Month with a novel I've been wanting to re-write/finish. If I don't feel ready I may just write up a short story series for the month based off of fairy tales.

Lots to do. I'm really looking forward to the adventure that awaits once I finish this novel. I'm finally able to sit down and write without wanting to write a short story or switch novels. I think I found my want, no need to write. I'm enjoying every minute of it. I try to write at least one to two times a day. In the morning I don't have much time but even writing a few words helps. I write the mass of the novel at night when no one is making noise or is around to distract me. Just me and my furry babies, who would much rather sleep sprawled out behind me then bug me, luckily.

Tonight is just one major mark in my journey. I do have a long way to go. But at least I am able to still keep going. Writer's block is no longer an issue. I have broken down the wall blocking me from my love of storytelling. Hopefully this novel does well. It's a lot of fun to write. I've also noticed I'm making fewer mistakes which allows me to focus on improving my word use and allowing me to work harder at describing everything in detail.

But that's enough for now. I'm terribly tired, as it's already one in the morning. And I need to sleep before we head out to the beach in a few days. I'll update again once I reach 50k!

Friday, July 12, 2013

The urge to write

I haven't written on here for a while. I've been so busy with props and costumes for an up-coming con and trying to find a job and writing my novel that I hadn't stopped to take a moment to express my thoughts on this blog. I'll admit I'm stressed and I have had a few moments where I re-think my novel and start wanting to write my other one but I'm proud to say I haven't stopped writing it.

Right now I am currently at 36,884 words and 124 pages. That's really good because months ago I couldn't even write more than 1,000 words a week. So I've changed a lot. I've reminded myself why I want to get published, why these stories I write are important to me. I've reminded myself that I love writing. It doesn't pay the bills right now but I love it. I want this to my career so I can proudly say I love my job. One step at a time right now. I'm taking things slowly. I don't want to rush it. If I'm not feeling it I write a little or do some out lining. Take a break and find myself wanting to write afterwards.

The urge to write has returned. My laziness is going away. I'm thinking about my novel, the characters, the plot all the time now. What can I do next? What twist would work in this scene? Should I kill this character? I'm having lots of fun. It's like playing the Sims. I'm in control, I can cause bad things to happen or good things to happen. It's a lot of fun. I've lost sight of all the fun I had writing when I was in high school.

I may not have much support anymore but I can do it as long as I believe I can. I do find it fun to tell people about my novels, the ideas I have and what I want to write about but I can't let me get down that I no longer have people who are interested in listening about me ramble about my writing. It's okay. I may be nervous and shy and maybe a little scary at times but writing changes that.

It pushes me to do my best, to step out of my shoes and into another's. I think that's what I like best about writing. It gives me a break from the norm. I can become someone else. Live in another world. I'm happy to say that I've fallen in love with writing all over again. And I hope that I can do my very best with what I have and make a damn good novel for you guys to someday read.