Tuesday, May 29, 2012


It grows day by day and sits heavily on my chest, over my heart like a ton of rocks. Growing minute by minute every time I stop and think things over. I have too many ideas. Characters made, plots ready to be written. But instead of words flowing I become stuck in a rut of which to write, will this sell? Or be another mound that grows rejections.

Many good sources and noteworthy authors will tell you to write what you love, not what will sell. And I'm at the point in my life where all I can think about is getting some sort of income so I can finally put my dreams into action.

But the worry grows every time I sit down and write. I'm sitting here trying to outline and I'm wondering if I should just give up writing novels. But when I take a few deep breaths and really think, I mean REALLY think it over I realize giving up is still not worth it. Writing is my love. And I have to try. I'm always talking about doing your best and giving up.

But its hard when you've had over hundred rejections even through you rewrite and rewrite over and over and over and over and over....do you get it? It's a lot of work writing 300 page, 100,000 word novels. So giving up means throwing that hard work away. I've never worked so hard in my life and its about time I focus on it one hundred percent.

So I decided to give this unnamed novel another chance, since its a rewrite I'm starting to wonder if I should change that. Make it its own novel. Change it to the point its a brand new project. First I'm going to give it a new name. Second, change the plot and create something refreshing, new, interesting. To not only to me but to....

A beta reader. I've been wanting someone new to read over my work for a while. My hubby is good but will give it very little thought. Plus he's...well very busy and I need someone who's more of a avoid reader like myself. So I'm starting my search, hopefully a friend will step up and do it so I can have a trustworthy person I can meet in person rather then some stranger online who could be stealing my ideas to use for themselves.

So we'll see how it goes. Hopefully it will turn out good and I'll feel refreshed, ready to write!

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

Outling, Pros and cons

I normally don't like posting post after post but since I'm about to do a major outlining spree I thought it might be interesting for those who are in the same boat. I find outlining very important for many reasons. Here are some...

  • Helps keep you within your word count goal
  • Helps keep you from getting side tracked/ long winded on unimportant scenes
  •  If you get lost, it guides you
  • Works wonders for writer's block
  • Helps keep the plot strong
  • Good to use when rewriting the project

So those are just a few of the reason that I can think of right now. (Its past eleven and I'm a bit tired.) But anyway besides those here are some pros and cons of outlining. Of course remember just because your writing a novel, doesn't mean you have to outline. For the most part I outline my novels but during rewrites I normally don't. I go with the flow. In fact just because you have a outline doesn't mean you can't "go with the flow" and change something.


  • Takes lots of time
  • Things might change as you write the chapter (Go with the flow!)
  • Blocks the fun/creative process.
  • You might not even use it!
  • Waste of paper/time

I can't really think of many cons because I find it fun to outline but those are just some that I thought might come up if speaking to someone who disagrees.  So I'll go ahead and continue on.  When I outline I make sure to do it by chapter or by events. You'll find doing both very useful when writing up a synopsis and query letter. The novel I'm working on now is one I've rewritten twice. So not only did I give it a complete make over  but I'm also changing some the major plot events as well as a new title. But while I'm writing I'm finding myself all over the place, wondering what should come next so I'm leaning towards outlining this novel since the plot is new and the twists are major.

So in order to make sure I don't miss out on any of those hidden twists I'm planning it all out on paper. I love going back to read it anyway. Its a way of becoming inspired I suppose or motivated to keep going on wards towards getting this novel published. I stopped sending out queries for my other novel, Promise Me since agents don't seem to be interested in what goes bump in the night (werewolves) This novel is pretty different. I just hope I can manage writing it as I see it in my mind.

Saturday, May 5, 2012

Taking a break

Find a job is tough! So I'm going to focus on finding one for the next few weeks. I have another con coming up in September and the cosplay I want to buy will require a lot of money. So I have no choice but get a job and work, work, work. So I'm not going to be blogging as often for a while.