I feel free

It's odd but I feel really free. Why? Because I'm not in the contest. For some reason I feel really good and positive. Being cut out gave me the push I needed to send out query letters (sent five) and really connect/back up my novel. I'm proud of my work and it's their lose. I'm really okay with not winning because either way I have to find an agent. I may not be able to tell them I won a contest but I still have a good book to give them.

Inside of me I feel like a door has been opened and all the bad things I've been keeping inside have flown out. I feel good. It's weird but I feel good. I'm happy and ready to do lots of hard work to become published.

I can do it.